whenever I try to be cheerful or calm something comes on my way I decide to quit but this time instead of quitting I am trying a little harder, I hope I can make it. to be honest I am not even thinking about what will happen actually I thought it too much now I even don't care about it. sometimes I have taken things too seriously that I even want to die, but I have someone in my life who is basically taught me how to live? not only live but also in a good manner and I am thankful for his lessons. but still, I am not satisfied. what is the purpose of my life I really don't know? and all I know this is stupid I even don't know the purpose of my life and why I am living it? to be honest I am tired of everything. sometimes I think let it be whatever happening let that happen. bottom line I am trying to be calm though I feel like nobody understands me. 21;55PM